I wouldn't deny that I'm afraid. No, much more than afraid, I am terrified of the unknown. Hiro wished that we could just live life when it was... simpler. I hadn't realise that so much have changed. His comment made me realise that I do wish, too, that life was simpler, like when we were still in kindergarten and nothing but friendships and toys mattered.
We also came upon the subject on whether we thought if life was too short or too long. It would be ironic of me to say both. Initially, I'd say life is long as many of us constantly face challenges and life, as a journey, never seem to sail as smoothly as we had hoped it would have. But I changed my mind because then it occurred to me that life is truly too short. Over the short 16 years that I had lived, I realise that I didn't accomplish much at all. There were so many childhood dreams, no matter how simple they were, that I had wanted to reach. Evidently, there were few that were actually realised. How many stories have we heard about people regretting the things they failed to do in life in their deathbeds? Countless. I fear regret more than I fear the unknown. Therefore, it was not before long that I've decided to take a leap of faith. It is the reason why I'm taking veterinarian course in polytechnic. It is the reason why I do the things I do. I fear regret.
There are just so many things I can't say. There's so little people I can talk to. There's so many heartfelt things that I want to say but it just seem to get stuck on the tip of my tongue. Regret? I hope not.
I shall bid all goodbye with one of my favourite songs. Rascal Flatts' Bless The Broken Road.
Mon Chéri.
